Dashing Desire: March 2014

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Closed Doors

It's easy to be calm, happy and contented when things are good, when there is no struggle. The challenge is to still rejoice and praise God when things are not so good. Today, I had two rejections and it hurt my ego a lot. Having two doors slam on me in one afternoon made me sad as I know I won't proceed the way I planned and envisioned.

For a moment. I questioned why I was rejected. For a moment I had a pity party and I even compared myself to others who were more fortunate than I am. Then as clear as the sun, I received an answer. "Trust me. I know what I am doing. I am not giving you this because I am saving you from danger. I am denying you this because I have something better. I have the whole picture. Trust me."

There I went again, I made plans without praying to my Father. I made plans on my own, not considering how it will benefit me in the long run and how it will build my Father's kingdom. And like so many times in my life, he is saving me, he is asking me to trust him, surrender my everything to him, grow my faith and let him have his way in my life.

Thank you my Lord, thank you for taking away things that would keep me away from you. Thank you that when you close doors to me, you are keeping me safe. Thank you that you have my best interest in your heart. Lord, have your way.

I Surrender

Here I am
Down on my knees again
Surrendering all
Surrendering all

Find me here
Lord as You draw me near
Desperate for You
Desperate for You

I surrender

Drench my soul
As mercy and grace unfold
I hunger and thirst
I hunger and thirst

With arms stretched wide
I know You hear my cry
Speak to me now
Speak to me now

I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Kingdom Invasion 2014

Last night was an awesome experience of praise, worship, prayer, healing and revival at the second evening session of Kingdom Invasion 2014. I went with a couple of my friends and we were all blessed by the music, message and wave of healing that happened.

There is something so powerful when believers from different churches gather for prayer and fellowship.

KI2014 is happening at Singapore Expo Hall 1 from March 18-21, 2014.

Listen, sing, dance and come alive with God's Great Dance Floor :)

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Stay and Wait

Waiting has never been my strong suit. I want quick action and instant results. That's why diets don't work for me. I desire movement, something to work on, something to reach, something to accomplish. I thrive in competition, enjoy seasons and dwell in happy chapters of my life.

Almost all the years of my life, I worked on and by my own strength; God was almost never in the equation. So all these changes in me and my life are overwhelming me because for the first time in my life, I am no longer in control. I have given the steering wheel of my life to Jesus, letting him call the shots, letting him decide where to go and waiting on his timing.

The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him,

to the one who seeks him;

(Lamentations 3:25 NIV)

It's still a daily struggle though. I have things I want to do but I pray for wise counsel, control and patience. When things don't go the way as I planned them to, I pray for understanding, acceptance and complete trust. When the temptations are strong, I turn my back and run, as fast as I can, as far as I can go; constantly praying for protection and courage to say no.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways submit to him,

and he will make you paths straight.

(Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV)

Do I sometimes doubt the Lord? I must admit that sometimes I wonder if everything I'm doing, feeling and sacrificing are going to be worthy. However, I can say that I can never doubt my Lord because he has proven himself on the cross and he has proven himself to me by performing a great miracle in my life. After what he has done to me, I can never turn my back away from him, I can never bat an eye, I can never deny his existence and his greatness and goodness.

I pray that all my family and friends would have an encounter with the Lord as deep, personal and unimaginable as mine. Then you would understand how deep his love is for his children. Then you would understand why I love him this much, and why I will stay and wait for him.

I remain confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the Lord

in the land of the living.

Wait for the Lord;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the Lord.

(Psalm 27:13-14 NIV)

Stay and Wait

Who spoke the Earth and sky to form
Who sets the sun and calls the dawn
Who breathed me out of dust to life
The will to trust or run and hide

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You

Who loved me through my rebel way
Who chose to carry all my shame
Who breaths in me with endless life
The king of glory Jesus Christ

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You

God of wonder and God of grace
Let my soul stand always to praise You
Fix my eyes on Your perfect way
And I'll never look back

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You

Who lifts the poor and heals the blind
Who trampled death for all mankind
Who stands for all with arms stretched wide
My King forever Jesus Christ

Monday, March 17, 2014

You Know Me

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?

Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father.

And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

(Matthew 10:29-31 NIV)

One of the first things I had to teach myself or allow myself to learn when I accepted Christ in my life is how He loves me. His love for me is so deep and personal that the Father took the time to count each one of the hairs on my head! He memorizes every tiny detail of my body, every speck, every freckle. He knows every thought, every emotion, every feeling I have. He knows my actions even before or after I've done them. Nothing escapes my Father. He doesn't miss anything. Knowing and accepting this comforts me.

Matthew 10:29-31 reminds me that if God is concerned about one sparrow, the more that He is concerned about me. I pray that the truth of His love for me will be embedded in me every single waking day.