Closed Doors

It's easy to be calm, happy and contented when things are good, when there is no struggle. The challenge is to still rejoice and praise God when things are not so good. Today, I had two rejections and it hurt my ego a lot. Having two doors slam on me in one afternoon made me sad as I know I won't proceed the way I planned and envisioned.

For a moment. I questioned why I was rejected. For a moment I had a pity party and I even compared myself to others who were more fortunate than I am. Then as clear as the sun, I received an answer. "Trust me. I know what I am doing. I am not giving you this because I am saving you from danger. I am denying you this because I have something better. I have the whole picture. Trust me."

There I went again, I made plans without praying to my Father. I made plans on my own, not considering how it will benefit me in the long run and how it will build my Father's kingdom. And like so many times in my life, he is saving me, he is asking me to trust him, surrender my everything to him, grow my faith and let him have his way in my life.

Thank you my Lord, thank you for taking away things that would keep me away from you. Thank you that when you close doors to me, you are keeping me safe. Thank you that you have my best interest in your heart. Lord, have your way. 

I Surrender

Here I am
Down on my knees again
Surrendering all
Surrendering all

Find me here
Lord as You draw me near
Desperate for You
Desperate for You

I surrender

Drench my soul
As mercy and grace unfold
I hunger and thirst
I hunger and thirst

With arms stretched wide
I know You hear my cry
Speak to me now
Speak to me now

I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more